Archive for October, 2005
October 29, 2005 – 3:58 pm
That pic above, my friends, is of my new on-the-fly setup of projector (borrowed), PS2 (received as present) and Akai Ito (bought at Traders :P). It rocks, although ideally I would be able to throw up a larger image on my other – currently occupied by shelve – wall.
I also procured new flannel sheets and comforter cover, a goose down comforter, and nice furry bedspread, for about ¥20,000 total off the net. Come winter, I’m ready this time! Viva online shopping!
Being warm is nice. Buying stuff is nice. Playing with nice stuff you bought is nice.
Last weekend was brilliantly sunny, so much so that I gave up on my quest to reach a certain far off town by bike, because I was getting sunburnt, my eyes hurt from the glare, and the road I picked was pretty crummy. 50% chance of rain tomorrow, coupled with a very late night karaoke last night, pretty much kills my plans for a rematch. I think I will stay home with my furry bedspread and sheets and comforter, make friends with the PS2 and projector, and spend quality time trying to develop meaningful virtual relationships with 15 year old 2D girls in a vampire story.
Oh yeah, write another letter to Hekiru too. *sigh* worry about the girl…
Anyway, my declaration of a more moderate work life has been summarily banished to the far corners of dreamland fantasy. The “change the face of information creation and dessimination” project has revived, albeit in a somewhat more subdued, phased form, and yours truly is on it. Yes, I am estatic. Chance of a lifetime. No, really! I mean, I love what I’m doing, I just need less of the other shit I don’t like to deal with :P
What else has been memorable? I saw Sin City too, first time in a cinema in a while. It was okay, like Pulp Fiction crossed with Kill Bill but made lighter and more palatable. I actually liked it, the flawed but righteous characters and the impossibly beautiful women in that dark comic book world. Jessica Alba was amazing.
On the other hand of the spectrum, my ailing DVD drive revived barely enough for me to watch Saving Face, a film about an Asian American woman, her mother, and the relationships around them as they struggle with their real selves amidst the day-to-day of holding up the facade of what they are expected to be. I thought it might be interesting, I didn’t think it would leave such a lasting impression on me. Not for the story or movie, although certainly the portrayal of Chinese families manages to be pretty darn funny in its spot-on realism, and the fairy tale ending truly rules. No, I was just rather stunned by Wil, the main character – it was a bit like watching myself, that awkwardness, inability to express, the same very Chinese upbringing with a need to be outside that world. In a weird quirk, the character for her name is the same as mine. Luckily, my mother is much nicer and normal :D I think…
I wonder what my ending will be? At least recent experience has revived my confidence that my heart still does flipflops if I sit next to the right person 8D
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October 14, 2005 – 2:29 pm
Cannondale R500 Feminine, 40 Green. With carbon fork (because they shipped it with a 700mm fork instead of a 650mm).
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October 14, 2005 – 1:29 pm
10/11 Children of Bodom live at Shibuya-AX, damn awesome concert with my friend and I smack in front of the bass, headbanging and screaming, yeah. They seemed to like us quite a bit too, coz they were hanging on our side of the stage a lot :D
10/12 Day of death, bug check scramble before the up, plus I had to finish another project, madness. At least I got help on some outstanding projects, otherwise would’ve died or killed. Punched out at 4:17, Shiina Time, only good thing.
10/13 GAZZ! goes global, I feel better.
10/14 One year older. 人はどこへゆくの？
Thanks to friends, all of you.
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October 12, 2005 – 4:24 pm
Found this article on overworked IT managers in the UK.
What hit home was that stuff about how most loved their job, couldn’t wait to get to work. So perhaps their situation can only be blamed on their high level of work satisfaction! I mean, if every raised a bitch about how they hated their job, they’d probably get paid more, right?
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October 12, 2005 – 2:29 am
I think it’s finally making it’s way into my thick skull… Nothing is worth destroying your body and sacrificing your psychological well-being, certainly not even for love, and definitely not for a job. And it doesn’t matter how much you like the work or the people, it’s just not worth it, because right now I know that I will look back on this time and hate myself for the mess I’ve let my life slide into.
I think it’s time to set some priorities. The really simple ones that destress, right away, plus the slightly bigger ones that mean your quality of life goes up.
I think the bike is a good start. The shelves made me feel good too. Next up is giving my room a good clean, perhaps this Sunday. Then say, I will go home by midnight, unless it’s a real true blue emergency. This means I shall have to be far more efficient and disciplined with my time, which is a good skill to learn anyway.
Last, throw in meditation when I get home, and stress-relief exercise everyday. Perhaps that will stop me from either killing myself, or somebody else, out of sheer frustration.
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October 8, 2005 – 10:19 pm
It’s 10pm on Saturday night, and I’m sitting at home reading fanfic. I’m too tired to go out, a dinner invitation the best I can manage, but turned down, so I console myself on the new Rammstein album, and a Takeshi Kovacs novel, and a cup of awamori that friends from work gave me as a present from their trip to Okinawa. I feel a slight buzz, and I’m now mellow enough to spew shit into my blog, yeah.
Had a talk with the parents today, or mother really, and it’s kinda depressing, I mean, when your younger sister is headed home next month with boyfriend in tow, boyfriend number what you don’t really know, and my mom not to subtly asks when she gets to meet my significant other, fully believing that I actually came to Japan because there was a boy here I was head over heels for.
I don’t have the heart to tell her the truth. And I’m too depressed to ruminate too hard on what significant other should mean, and fuck it, my mom knows and I know full damn well that with my current lifestyle, I’m not gonna make much progress now, am I?
Fuck that shit.
Really, I can’t even tell if I’m just a relationship cripple. Dammit, sick of the whole fucking shitload of crap. Yeah I know there’s no substitute. There’s only fucking bandaiding, so I buy toys and shit, like my new Cannondale R500 road bike, fucking awesome piece o’ shit, fuckin’ lightest bike I ever rode or even touched, amazing tech, ya know I was always thinking what space age shit they would have to throw together to justify a $1000++ price tag on a friggin’ bike, just a contraption on two wheels fergossake, but hot damn, it’s fuckin’ amazing, I rode this thing and I just fell in love like nobody’s business.
Yeah, the alcohol is talkin’ now. Whatever. All I know is, the guys are right, if you can’t get the girl, you can always settle for shiny toys.
Fuck that shit. If it wasn’t drizzling, I’d be ridin’ around town. Helmetless. More than one way to paint the town red, eh?
If Ikebukuro is running Sin City and it’s not too drippy, maybe I’ll head out. Yeah, welcome to Saturday night in Tokyo working for an IT startup.
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October 7, 2005 – 1:18 pm
Whoop! Mai Otome, that milk-it-for-all-it’s-worth-and-more alternative universe take on our favourite HiMEs, has started. Shit, it’s already October? Shoot me now, in one week I will be hitting the last year of my twenties. This sucks.
Lucky, then, that to drown my sorrows at my pitiful single existence working insane hours because it’s too boring to go home and too much of a pain to go out unless it was with someone I really like, we, ladies and gentlemen, have the ol’ BT really full tilt so I can catch a glimpse of Shizuru, RIGHT NOW DAMMIT!!!
I mean, check this out!
Dude if she looks this good in the actual show… *grins really stupid fangirl grin*
And not to be outdone, KOS-MOS comes back, looking reeeaaaal nice, and Shion, wow, Shion actually looks… awesome.
Then, we have Soul Calibur 3 coming, which although sorely lacking Seung Mina, makes up for it with a kickass game concept and extras. (See, it’s not just about the eye candy.)
Unfortunately, no other anime really catches my eye. But if I get my road bike, plus get around to some sort of display for this PS2 that a friend gave me, hell, I’d be playing Akai Ito and SC3 and Xenosaga and who the hell needs anime, anyway? :P
On the other hand, it does sound like I seriously need a life.
If I can only make it till the end of the month, yeah, bulk of work done, take vacation, maybe never come back.
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